First I want to apologize that this is incredibly long, I have not talked to anyone about this and though I do not know you, I feel that you are someone that I can talk to.

I have been a part of religion since I was born. My beliefs, like many others, were shaped by what my parents exposed me to. None of this is bad, and all of which beliefs are still in my heart. I am only 18 years old, but compared to most my age I have been more eager to figure these beliefs and "judgements" out on my own.

By doing this, I now understand the things religions do to influence you and I have realized that beliefs that are taught to me are merely interpretations that someone else has taken from the Bible. I know that without reading it yourself, you may be sucked into believing something false. Because of this I am not "religious". I am however a follower of Jesus Christ and I have beliefs that God works in many ways and things. I have always needed to believe in something, and have always felt that there was something to believe in.

Unfortunately, exactly a week ago I was introduced to the movie, Zeitgeist. Going into it I knew it was a bad idea, but for me being ignorant to the obvious is not a choice. So I proceeded to watch it, and it broke me. Completely shattered everything I believed about Jesus. It didn't help that when it comes to the Bible I am already skeptical and easily accepting of other belief systems. But that day, I never realized how much the Jesus story impacted my life. I felt empty, and like there was a gaping hole in me. I had grown up knowing without a relationship with Jesus then there was no way of going to Heaven, that was it, my only choice. But seeing this movie just completely gave me every reason in the world to believe this stuff was a lie, except for my desire to look the other way. I had never been so scared in my life of dying; dying was never scary to me, I knew my place and I knew if it was time for me to go, fine. But now I was unsure of everything, there was not eternity, there was no point. God was still there but he had changed a little bit, I didn't know what he wanted anymore.

Before, I never really doubted the story of Jesus, because I was told that there was historical proof that he lived, and that is all I needed. But this movie claimed there is no proof, or at least not enough. During the movie, I would pause it and look it up and it would be there telling me this is true. But of course I had typed in something like "Jesus similar to Horus" etc.

After this movie I didn't know what to do. Everything in my life was turned upside down, and I didn't know who to talk to about it. I looked up free counseling centers for youth in my areas, to maybe just have someone to talk to. But I didn't want to tell the unknowing about this thing that completely destroyed me. I would not talk to my mom (whom I am very close to) about it, not my friends. In this case, it was like as long as it didn't hurt anyone else it was okay for others to believe it if they wish. But here I was, keeping this secret inside me.

I decided 2 days ago that I would ignore everything that I had heard, and just go back to how I felt before. If you knew me, you would know that I don't/can't do that. I believe in science, I believe God created science, most people I know won't accept that. But I won't ignore the proof.

Something about me is that I have always asked God to give me "signs", I never thought he really would give them to me. I knew he was there, I didn't really need proof, it just would have been nice to have it. So again I asked for proof, not expecting much. there was no obvious proof, but I do believe this was something influenced by God. Earlier tonight (Thursday) I was with my family talking about these dreams I had. About, sharks, shields, masks, knifes, killers, snakes etc. So we decided to find out what these dreams were said to signify. All of these things sort of connected. A lot of it said that I was ignoring some emotion of mine, or that I was losing my identity, that I had stress, hidden anger, obstacles, vulnerability etc. And one key point to the dreams I that these sharks and snakes had a shield in front of them, which was my spiritual protection.

Normally I think these sort of things are like horoscopes; they are fun to read, yay if it happens, so what if they don't. But I asked God to give me a symbol in a dream. And I truly believe here it was, that I shouldn't pretend I am okay anymore and just face it and find an answer. So that's what I did about 3 hours ago.

So here is where you come in.

I needed something to explain why these things aren't true, not just because of the devil. And I came upon your site. Which basically lays it all out. The page that came up first was the parallels between Horus & Jesus, which was what I needed. I read it all and I am truly amazed at how you tackle everything. You cite your stuff which is even better. I then moved on to the email between Acharya, which I thought was the most interesting. You hear people say "well, I saw it on a movie." And this is an exact representation of someone like that. She could only reference Gerald Massey for the most part, and he is already known to be the one mostly responsible for the Horus vs Jesus similarities.

I then continued on to read your conversation with Jeffery, which was the most helpful to me. I tried to read most of it, but as it got to the last few pages it began to repeat itself. I would like to add that with the whole Zeitgeist thing, their main point is that we're being brainwashed for manipulative reasons and we don't know truth. But us believing in a man who rose from the dead is faith, but we shouldn't believe it because it possibly could be a lie. Isn't believing these claims of Horus and Jesus the same thing? Aren't we fighting the same thing, that believing something because someone tells us to is wrong?

In the last 2 hours of reading your emails, I have learned a great deal. And my heart is starting to heal. I feel a bit more whole and empowered. And I thank you greatly. I found that you were once an athiest and I am so amazed by God. This site truly is impacting and I am so grateful that you want to share the truths. You don't push away the possible, and you accept with evidence. Because of a point you have made: that one should not just believe everything you read, I will continue to look at possible answers to my faith and look deeper at the story of Horus in comparison to Jesus. But from what I have read tonight this website will make me sleep happier (hopefully with no sharks or snakes or knifes) and you have truly pieced my faith together again.

If you have seen someone give their testimony, you know it is a persons experience with Jesus Christ, I have never had a real powerful testimony. I believe now, this is mine.

Thank you, I am so grateful.

Jessica